Being ...
Its 5:08 on the clock ..knowing me u kno that it must be am .... i have just finished watching the movie "Being John Malkowich" .... terrific movie ..those who hav seen the movie , i m certain would agree wid me .... but this movie has aroused a curiosity in me . A curiosity that is insatiable.
I mean if u had the power of being in some place ...without anybody other than urself realising this.Wat are u gonna do?? ...most ppl ll have no fuckin idea,this is why these ppl have no names they are just "most ppl " i mean they are there in every decision thats taken but who are these most ppl. Most ppl wd think this , most ppl wd think that , most ppl will do it this way ,most ppl will like this .....but who the fuck are these "most ppl".Now u see they cant have names becoz if u giv them names they ll start to have an individuality that ll seperate them frm the most.
ppl so insignificant that they dont even have names are running this world and taking every decision strange isnt it...
But for the matter of the rest of text ,lets just forget the insignificant most and concentrate on the omnipotent I ...What am I gonna do ???
Vedas say that there four aims of life , " dharma ,arth,kam, moksha" roughly translated....religion,money,sex and salvation.Now the road to salvation is too tough,religion doesnt suit my lifestyle,that leaves money and sex .... but if i choose one or both of them i would have to become a part of the "most" ...which i despise more than anythin in this world so vedas have failed for me.I have to chart a new plan ..hmmm... anythin material that i would want to achieve would also drag me back into the "most" ..so why not do away with the whole idea of achieving ... i shall do somethin fer the sheer beauty of it.
Ohh yes i ll go to her . She who is unachievable, unattainable, beautiful and pure,but i shall not strive to make her mine becoz thats wat most are trying to do.
She ...u wanna know wat she is like ... she is a damsel,naive and knows it ahhh just take a moment here and think...3 ...5 ...7 ...8..9....yup if my calculations are right ,she is the most enigmatic woman on the face of the earth."naive and knows it" ... it cant get any better,any more beautiful,any more conceited,any more intriguing ...ohh god i love her.
So back to the original question ..what am i gonna do? I ll watch her sleep,I ll see how her hair falls down on her forehead,covers her dark brown eyes and i ll notice.When her nose etches and she ll move her hand sleepily to softly touch her nose,i ll notice.When she turns around and moves her body to fit the dream world that fer now she thinks is real,i ll notice. I ll notice how she kicks while she is asleep,how she clenches her blanket and how she adjusts her pillow.i ll wait fer the slightest tint of a smile on her face ...and when it comes i ll capture it for ever n ever in my memory.i ll sit by her and watch.
I mean if u had the power of being in some place ...without anybody other than urself realising this.Wat are u gonna do?? ...most ppl ll have no fuckin idea,this is why these ppl have no names they are just "most ppl " i mean they are there in every decision thats taken but who are these most ppl. Most ppl wd think this , most ppl wd think that , most ppl will do it this way ,most ppl will like this .....but who the fuck are these "most ppl".Now u see they cant have names becoz if u giv them names they ll start to have an individuality that ll seperate them frm the most.
ppl so insignificant that they dont even have names are running this world and taking every decision strange isnt it...
But for the matter of the rest of text ,lets just forget the insignificant most and concentrate on the omnipotent I ...What am I gonna do ???
Vedas say that there four aims of life , " dharma ,arth,kam, moksha" roughly translated....religion,money,sex and salvation.Now the road to salvation is too tough,religion doesnt suit my lifestyle,that leaves money and sex .... but if i choose one or both of them i would have to become a part of the "most" ...which i despise more than anythin in this world so vedas have failed for me.I have to chart a new plan ..hmmm... anythin material that i would want to achieve would also drag me back into the "most" ..so why not do away with the whole idea of achieving ... i shall do somethin fer the sheer beauty of it.
Ohh yes i ll go to her . She who is unachievable, unattainable, beautiful and pure,but i shall not strive to make her mine becoz thats wat most are trying to do.
She ...u wanna know wat she is like ... she is a damsel,naive and knows it ahhh just take a moment here and think...3 ...5 ...7 ...8..9....yup if my calculations are right ,she is the most enigmatic woman on the face of the earth."naive and knows it" ... it cant get any better,any more beautiful,any more conceited,any more intriguing ...ohh god i love her.
So back to the original question ..what am i gonna do? I ll watch her sleep,I ll see how her hair falls down on her forehead,covers her dark brown eyes and i ll notice.When her nose etches and she ll move her hand sleepily to softly touch her nose,i ll notice.When she turns around and moves her body to fit the dream world that fer now she thinks is real,i ll notice. I ll notice how she kicks while she is asleep,how she clenches her blanket and how she adjusts her pillow.i ll wait fer the slightest tint of a smile on her face ...and when it comes i ll capture it for ever n ever in my memory.i ll sit by her and watch.
posted by zack at
4:17 PM
4 Comments:
In the silence of your heart you shall hear her foot steps :P
hehe totally agree with the above comment...nice and different blog...so much better compared to the stupid diary entries ve been writing of late!
never knw u were a hopeless romantic...really revealing blog..well done.regarding the achievement of dharma and moksh, go thru the english translation of arthashastra.....i guess it'll help.
U're beginning to sound like a lost romeo...
Very touching btw! :P
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